Stuck in the Middle

"Stuck in the middle... Smack dab in the middle" this is not an homage to the Oreo commercial but rather Cornelius' new favorite ditty!
Well, I've finally experienced PBing. ( Or Productive Burping as most bandsters refer to it)
Let me tell you,  It's NO BUENO!!! Phlegm, the gurgles  and overwhelming need to regurgitate is not my idea of a good time.

288 lbs 11/8/11 53lbs lost

Cornelius has been more finicky than ever since returning stateside. I'm trying to get in enough protein and such daily,but it's been hard since my first fill. I better head to GNC for some protein powder.
I have even less of an appetite than before. I forget about my stomach, I forget to eat, and about FOOD!
It's crazy something that I felt comforted by no longer has the same therapeutic effect.
I've being working out, getting fresh air ,cardio, and walking a couple miles a day. I'm not comfortable enough to go to the gym yet, but I'm getting there. It's Hotlanta people. Less like L.A. Fitness and more like Club Fitness. I'm not ready to punish myself on the  elliptical machine next to Rosa Acosta look a likes! Baby Steps.
Real moment: Everybody cheats! Let's be honest.
Being in America with more food choices means more chances to eat crap as well. The other day I was craving something greasy. I had a cheeseburger from Wendy's. It took hours to eat half and it wasn't even satisfying.  I used to love to punish a cheeseburger deluxe and now it's more of a hassle. Honestly I'd rather have had a  grilled chicken salad or a turkey burrito. 
I dont know about anyone else, but I try to stay away for drinks high in sugar . Since Cornelius, I have WICKED cotton mouth any time I try to drink anything other than water, OJ, or homemade iced tea. Sper sweet beverages are a no go! YUCK.
However if you're in the mood for a min indulgence, Skinny Cow Ice cream which ranges from 100- 160 calories per serving container is a nice treat and its not too sugary. So if you have a sweet tooth skinny Cow is the way to go!
I know this is a way of life. I'm trying to find a balance between healthy participant in changing my life and weight obsessed. At times it can be difficult not to get so wrapped up in it, however I have a fantastic support system who keep my balanced.

Today I started working out with Kettle weights that my little Sis bought me! Gotta love having people in your corner.
So in addition to walking and Jillian 3 times a week I will now   include kettle weights. Those of you who know me, know I HATE working out,but I like the results I'm seeing in  just a week's time.  I look forward to pushing myself and becoming the Me, that I feel like inside, outside.

Constantly Under Construction.





So Corni, M.T. would like to share Shake it Out by Florence and the Machine:

Until next time...

1 month Surgiversary

3 days past my 1 month surgiversary and I'm feeling pretty good. * doing a little dance* It's been about 10 days since my first fill. It wasn't nearly as bad as I imagined it. Locating the port was a bit tricky but after that it was smooth sailing.  Every few days the most unexpected foods get stuck. Cornelius is a very flippant. Well I'm glad to report I'm almost out of the 290's.  Muffin Top is not impressed but hanging in there. Not bad for 33 days post op. 

 Im stateside with even less of an appetite than before the fill, but I'm trying to make sure I get those three protein packed meals a day. I started a workout regiment with my sister.

 Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred.

 It has three levels and  it's 20 mins of hardcore blood, sweat and tears. At 19 minutes Jillian was saying "Change isn't free and c'mon dont quit at the finish line" and all I could think was, I hate you Jillian!

 After the woozy light headed feeling passed I felt good. Note to self: Make sure I eat a little something before I work out. So I'm going to spend the next 30 days with Jillian. I'll be sweating my life away stretching and working muscles I didn't know I had. So to date I've lost 47 pounds. Which is a pretty awesome feeling. However now my clothes fit abnormally and there's only so much you can do with a belt. As of right now I'm living in leggings and my trusty long cardi. I'm not complaining I guess I'm going to have to rock tunics and tights for a bit. I am however looking forward to seeing results from working out though.

Today I woke up made a high protein breakfast, then shrugged on a pair of leggings , a tank, and my favorite green hoodie and walked 2.7 miles towards downtown Atlanta. Me? Almost three miles at a brisk pace.. who knew. I had my Iphone strapped on my arm , and I was jamming to my " I go Hard" playlist. Now all I have to do is figure out how to calibrate my Iphone with my Nikes. As I was on the last leg of my speed walk all I could think about is Jillian saying " It doesnt come free people, don't quit at the finish line" I pushed through it and ran up the 6 flights of stairs to my apartment. I'm committed to change. One day at a time.

A little bit of love from Muffin Top,Cornelius, and I
This one goes out to our new boo Jillian:

Until next time...